Tuesday, July 26, 2005
I'm so freaking bored right now. I am always bored.
Well, what do I expect?! I'm still jobless and I'm stuck here just eating, sleeping... staring at nothing, thinking about my future..if I have a future blahblah... all in all, just killing time..killing myself for doing NOTHING. I hate myself for being so friggin lazyyyy..
Last Sunday, my mom got so mad at me for sleeping for so many hours that they almost dragged me just to go with my sister to the mall to shop for a new pair of pants and get myself a new shirt. I cried so much coz I feel so pathetic. I had ugly thoughts about my past, about people..how I hate everything around me. I'm still the quiet giggly girl that people have known for years..I still havent grown. I'm still so immature. Ugh! the angst.
Well anyway, I took a cold shower after crying and guess what? I'm okei again (cue music..'if the feeling is goneeeee..'). I guess I can be pretty emotional sometimes, maybe a little depressed. It's kinda stupid how I can be like that. Sometimes I just had to kick myself. I didnt buy any shirt coz I hate how the mall can get so crowded on weekends because of the Artistas having their mall shows with all the fans screaming and the chismoso-chismosas blocking the entrance of the stores. I bought only the japanese strawberry chocolate (Meiji Apollo) which is now my addiction hehe. I'm so inlove with the OST of Naruto right now. I've never been into J-rock before but what the hell! They sound so great I dont have to understand the lyrics, I just have to listen and then.. I'm happy again. Yeah. And I also love the look of some jap rock artists..they're so goodlooking they look like women. They're wayyy prettier than me! and they're so effem! OMG! I'm turning into a fangirl. haha XD
hayyyy..whatevs! :P
just another day...
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