Thursday, March 16, 2006
I'm getting bored.
I don't know... maybe because I'm tired that things are now just a routine. I need a change. I need a challenge. Been offered one but I'm kinda scared of the responsibility. A week ago, I've thought about everything. It's too early and risky., I wish I could be stoic about everythng.. but I'm sure people have noticed that I'm always spacing out. This is me... I'm still normal. Maybe confused... but still normal. Still the plain-ol'-jane-me. I feel so boxed. Well, yeah... guess I'm still a little kid- weak, vulnerable and naive. It really sucks. I wish I could just do anything without worrying about people. But what can I do? I'm not that selfish... wish I were- that way, I'll be happier... oh, I forgot... I have guilt too. I've given too much of myself already and it's already draining me. Some may think "Hey look! that girl's gone bonkers!'. But hell no. I'm just too preoccupied with everything around me. They just had to come... all at the same time. Don't worry, I'm pretty much sure that this is just a phase... STIll a phase. It's just that it's taking a little longer to pass. Fucking Phase.
haaaaay.... I'm sure I'll delete this later.
just another day...
10:57 AM
