Saturday, April 29, 2006
2 weeks ago, Tita Luz told me she played Airsoft in Valenzuela.
Airsoft? ano yun, bubblegum?
Turns out it's a war game. Bang-bang.
Parang pellet gun. XD
kaya...
We'll be playing Airsoft next Sunday!
Woohoooo!
I am so excited.. hehe
it's another chance to bond with the beautiful lufet lolas.
Sana marami kami na maglalaro para happy.
yeah (-_-)
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eetz a byutipul saturday morning. I'm here in the office typing away. Kakatapos ko lang mag blog-hopping and mag-check ng friendster account. 6cyclemind is downstairs for the pictorial... I'll have another picture to post on friendter.. ehehe XD
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Yesterday's payday. I bought Charlie Chan from Yellowcab for dinner.
We decided to call the kitties "Team 7":
the energetic orange & white tabby- Naruto
the 3 colored sweet girl- Sakura
and the snobbish black&white- Sasuke
They're so adorable! They never seem to run out of energy. They just started to eat solid foods. I really hope they'll grow up into healthy and smart cats.
just another day...
12:17 PM
Friday, April 28, 2006
listening to old sound files brings back painful memories...
naalala ko tuloy ung mga confrontation chuva last year..
pero nung inisa-isa ko ung recorded voice conversations, natawa ako...
Mr. *: Tawa naman dyan... tawa kayo... aba eh...
Ako: Sir, wala naman pong dapat tawanan eh.
Mr.*: ...tawa na tayo...
Ako: Hindi kc sir... eh may sira na tayo sa ulo kung tatawa tayo kung wala namang dapat tawanan.
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Mr.*: Kayo na rin magdecide kung ....
Ako: Sir, kaya nga po kami na lang magdedecide kc may utak naman po kami eh.
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I dont hold any grudges against 'them'. I've moved on- we really can't fix something that's so broken in a short span of time. Just like what we all said "Hindi ganun kadali yun". There's no closure, I know but it's better that way. I'm not ashamed to admit that I wanted to reconcile with 'her' during our graduation but she just walked away as if I wasn't there. I'm no piece of shit. Ewan, siguro good luck na lang talaga dun sa dalawa. Kahit konti, I didn't feel that she was sorry for what she's done. At least I tried to help her. I don't know, maybe one day, if we ever bump into each other... we could just laugh it off, or just pretend we've never met. I thank her though coz I learned that I cant trust everybody much as I cant please everybody. I'm a tough girl to beat ne?
just another day...
4:51 PM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
I changed my friendster layout. It's uglier than my old layout but it's ok. Nakakatamad na baguhin ulit. I'll just wait for summer to pass then I'll change it back to it's old beauty.. nyehe. XD
Happy happy joy joy. I just finished another issue. The sad thing is, I still haven't finished my 3 pending illustrations. I'm not in the mood to do any vector chuva right now but I have to work my ass tonight just to finish 'em. The sooner it's done, the longer rest/petix time there'll be for me.
It's just that the only time available when I can do them is during night. But by the time I get home, I'm already tired and depression always hits me coz I'm always reminded of Pixie. I'm trying another style for my illustrations coz people who see my works say that they like so much coz they're either pastel-y or gothic. I'm no goth, ya know?! I dont know why people always say that I'm a goth. What can I do? They're the only decent clothes that I can wear, and I only wear clothes depending on my mood. So if that's what makes me goth, then ok.. goth it is. Wait, why am I so affected by this? I used to love goth fashion in college. We even decided on a gothic-japanese motif for our fashion show. Maybe it's because some people I know have stereotyped goths as weird, anti-social, devil-worshipping, freaky persons. I'm not like that, I'm just weird and a little bit anti-social (but not completely!).
I want to buy a Corel Painter installer for my sister. Her art has improved so much. Her Photoshop skills is so awesome! She colors her linearts as if she's using a pen tablet. I told her that she should save her allowance tapos Ate Lee and I will contribute so that she can buy her own tablet.
Ok.. that's all for now. I need to pee... XD
Gotta go home now so I can work on the illustrations.
just another day...
7:48 PM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I hear chairs being dragged. I turn around and see no one. I suddenly realized that I am alone and remembered the stories about ghosts that the people experienced. They said that ghosts roam this room and they only make you feel their presence if you're alone. Then, cold air breezed on my arm and goosebumps appeared on my left arm. Freaky.
just another day...
7:30 PM
Friday, April 21, 2006
Novs texted me this morning. It's not the usual 'wud up' greeting that we usually text each other just because we're bored. We actually had a conversation- meaning, we had a topic: about work, life, lalala.
She's planning of, umm, adding herself to the list or 'the fresh-starters'.
Man, some people are really brave. I'm so envious!
Howel, it's just not my time. (*_____*)...
just another day...
4:34 PM
I'm learning to accept reality though it hurts so much. I don't know what happened to Pixie... if he's alive or he left because he didn't want me to see him die. A lot of people say that some pets leave their owners to lessen the pain that they would feel if they see them die. But still, I want to believe that he's still alive. He's just hiding in alleys or some good person took him home to be loved and cared for. I miss him terribly, there is not a time that I dont think about him... it's as if half of my life has been taken away. It's very depressing that whenever I get home from work, he's not there to greet me, to sit by my side while I'm eating dinner. I miss his loud meow when he's mad at the other cats. I miss all the things that we do for the past 6 years.
It's hard to mend, hard to cope... but I'll get by.
just another day...
10:39 AM
Monday, April 17, 2006
Please Pixie... umuwi ka na. (T.T)
God, please keep him safe.
sana di sya magutom, masaktan, matakot.
sana makauwi na sya.
Please... pag may nangyaring masama sa kanya, di ko talaga kakayanin.
Kung ganun, take me instead. Please.
just another day...
11:36 PM
I'm listening to "Insensitive" by Jan Arden.
*sigh* I'm feeling mushy right now.
stupid unrequited love.
what's new?
oh! I just saw in the internet that there's a birth-simulator robot named Noelle. Wow! a robot! heehee. I want to be a robot! But I don't want to give birth.. not yet.. hehe (-_-);
according to my status counter, someone from QC is always reading my blog...
"Hello po!"
I found old short stories and poetry that I wrote a few years back. No one else has read them, just me. Itatago na lang. weh.
I've done almost all of the things that I wanted to do last holy week:
1. Baked... pudding!
2. Ate polvoron
3. I painted! yey!
4. Took some pictures using not the SLR, but digicam
5. Woke up late
6. Cooked lunch
7. Watched cartoons!!
yeah... I've accomplished a lot.. hehe (^_______^)v
badtrip nga lang coz my computer is now 50-50.. huhu. T.T
it crashed last thursday and we're fortunate enough to have back-up files...
ang hirap! my dad had to go to Recto just to look for stores na nagbebenta ng CD-Rs... ang mahal pa!
kaya pala nung payday, my feet are dragging me papuntang CD-R king kahit walang reason.. parang sinasabing "CD! CD! CD! bili ka marami daliii!!!".
pero di ako bumili. nyak.
it's 7pm... uwian na.
babayu. (^u^)/
just another day...
7:04 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Easter Sunday!
my four-day vacation is over. My aunt decided to just distribute the eggs instead of hiding 'em for an egg hunt. There are chocolates pa rin. Pero parang talagang nagbago na ang lahat. When I was a lil kid, I used to run around my grandma's house, elbowing the other kids just so I can find most of the eggs that we've colored the day before Easter. I never win though... pero masaya na ako kagad kapag nakukuha ko yung eggs na ako ang nag-design. hehe XD
Summer na talaga... it's soooo hot!
just another day...
12:08 PM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Hey! it's wednesday!
My sis and I used to argue when we were kids about the 'Wednesday Child is full of Woe' thing. I am a Wednesday child, so I'd stick my tongue out and say "that's not trueeee! bleh!". Kids..heh. Well anyway, I'm bored. There's not much to do. I've ran out of things to look for at the internet. I tried to edit my website but the firewall's too high in the office. owelz... at least I have my blog. (random thing: cutie pieeee!). It's payday and I want to buy something for my mom. She's sick right now and I really hope she gets well asap. Talked to Luz 3 days ago through YM. She's going to apply for another company this May. She has her own website na but wont give me the link coz she's still working on it. I'm so excited na.. hehe. I love my new phone wallpaper. Vanity kills.. hehe. I want to practice my photography again using my dad's SLR. I want to have my own photoshoot, with lots of friends who'll be nice enough to model for me. I'll be the make-up artist din..haha! Wala lang, just for fun.
I miss school. I miss the days when I'd wake up late, cook lunch with my mom and watch cartoons or movies in the afternoon. I want to bake a cake! or cookies! or POLVORON! I want polvoron badly!! and and... I want to Paint again. sigh. Nakaka-miss. It's a good thing I have 4 days to do some of those things. Siguro hindi lahat, basta merong magawa just to keep me busy. Last night, I had fun just doodling distorted characters on my old mathematics notebook. Maybe I should continue with my doodles and my poetry that no one else can read- para kahit papano, nagagamit ko utak ko sa kaiisip ng ideas. Siguro, I'll paint on the walls of our room, (mural ito!) and change the aquarium themed mural that I painted 5 years ago. Ano pa ba? hmmm... detox? oo nga, coz I've been feeling so crappy lately. I had diarrhea but I still feel super bloated. It's weird. Siguro my constipation is playng tricks on me. Will I survive if I fast for 3 days? Maybe. But hell no, I wont do that. I just remembered that I have a very acidic tummy, so fasting is not an option. I'll decide on this later. Teka... kelan nga ba ulit birthday ni Hazel? Gosh! I can't remember if it's April 17 or May 17?! Nga pala, my Aunt from Trinidad & Tobago is coming home on May. Only my family and Tita Linda know about this... surprise-surprise na lang. (^____^)>
I want a Monster Truck!!
<---- gaya nito!!
Gyahhhh!! Ang gandahhh!!!!
the tires are HUGE!
I can just drive 'over' the cars when there's traffic! Galeng! *evil grin* XD
Basta car na maganda, yung panglalaki, yung pedeng pangharabas ! (harabas? ano yun? XD) Just like the yellow Hummer na nakapark dati malapit sa bahay ng Lola ko. Haaaaay. I ♥ Monster Trucks.
Antagal naman mag-6pm.
just another day...
1:32 PM
Monday, April 10, 2006
everything's fine and dandy now.
haha... dandy.
(forgive me, it's just that the word dandy sounds like randy, bleh! XD)
well anyway, I am feeling much better now.
Last Saturday, I decided to treat myself to a deliciou Nai Cha and Siopao after being sick for almost two days. Gawd, why do I have to suffer diarrhea? it's painful enough that I haven't pooped for days because of my constipation (yes, world.. I'm not ashamed to admit that I am eternally Constipated). So it really is chronic eh? I mean, my constipation.
Back to topic.
I Love Nai Cha!!
at first it tasted a little weird but after a few sips... heaven!
my sister had this weird expression after she sipped from my cup... hehe.
And! Chowking's now selling fortune cookies for only 5pesos each!!
I wanted to buy some for me and my mom so that we can imitate the movie Freaky Friday but decided against the idea...hehe. Next Time.
I fell asleep in the afternoon and woke up super cranky because I didn't like dinner and coz my sis ate the cheese curlz that I kept at the refrigerator. I kinda felt sorry that I bitched about it. SOoo... I went back to sleep and woke up to my dad's yelling that he bought something for me. Halo-halo. Super Cold Halo-halo. I told him that I couldn't eat it because I dont want to worsen my cough. He offered to buy me a burger or any food that I want. He touched my forehead and said that my fever has returned. I told him I wasn't hungry anyway so he just bought me some antibiotics and the new bottled Nestea Ice Green Tea with cooling action chuva. Yeah, I felt like a kid again... the spoiled rotten kind..hehe. I didn't like the new Nestea coz it tastes so much like medicine and when I checked the label, it was full of artificial ingredients... actually, it wasn't made from real green tea, just some natural flavoring. Blegh.
Yesterday naman, I finally got to watch Inu Yasha again.
My sister bought 2 movies, Dirty Dancing 2 and The Notebook. We watched Dirty Dancing last night. I'm not really that crazy about the movie, it's too ordinary plus the girl is an awkward dancer. We're planning to buy Kim Sam Soon so that we can watch it this coming Holy Week.
So there.
Another boring post ne?
just another day...
10:48 AM
Thursday, April 06, 2006
After 7 months...
I've already fixed the image map of my blog.
Hurray for me! *taps myself at the back*
My next mission is to fix my crappy website.
I'll change the entire template and I'll create a gallery.
Yeah.
just another day...
3:04 PM
time.
akala ko wala na akong free time...
pero at last! petix again.
harharhar!(^_____^)v
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my friends and I chatted away on YM yesterday.
Conference chuvaness.
We'll anyway, Dex told me he'd already seen Spirited Away & Tokyo Godfathers.
Wah! I so want to watch those movies! It's included in the list of the movies that I want to see, which also includes Princess Mononoke and Howl's Moving Castle.
Pupunta nga yata sila ngayon ni Andy sa Quiapo- the not-so-hidden pirated CD's kingdom.
I really wish I had the time and money to go on a shopping spree sa Quiapo...
I wanna buy lotsa Japanese and Korean movies.
so, we're planning to have a Movie Trip/ Marathon.
We still haven't settled on a venue. hmmmmm...
Hope we can decide on this asap coz I'm really excited.
Hay, I miss my friends.
It's been a year na pala since our college graduation.
I saw this pic in my photo collection. This is our Class Picture during our second year... marami pa kami dyan. It was taken for the documentation of our Group Exhibit at the Kanlungan ng Sining at the Rizal Park. Haaay... ang saya!
Okay, I'll repeat it again.
Those were the days.
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Holy week na next week.
People are now packing for an out-of-town vacation trip.
Well, not my family.
We always have a movie marathon during the Holy week.
And I love it that way.
2 years ago, we watched The Ten Commandments..
t'was a very old (and very looong) movie.
Last year naman, Ben Hur.
Siguro, we'll rent some movies at the Video City (pero sana wala na ang kanilang mga sucky employees).
or we can watch the movies that my sister and I have collected.
1. Great Expectations
2. Finding Neverland
3. The Doll Master
4. 2046
5. Almost Famous
6. Somewhere In Time
7. Romy and Michele's High School Reunion
8. 50 First Dates
Besides, if you're on a vacation somewhere where there's a lot of noisy people, how can you contemplate?
just another day...
2:57 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
so okay, I just realized a while ago that I'm 'part' ambidextrous.
you see, I'm right-handed. I write, eat, carry stuff, hit people- all the things that I do everyday,using my right arm/hand. But I learned that I can draw with my left hand! it's not as pretty as my drawings whenever I draw using my right hand but it's decent enough to be called a "drawing". yeah, I rule! hehe XD
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maybe it really is chronic.
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I was thinking about something last night.
Some deep thoughts.
I was sooo proud of myself that I'm not as shallow that I used to be.
It's just fucked up that I forgot everything about it.
Stupid short term memory.
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everywhere, it's always:
"you scratch my back I'll scratch yours'"
there are so many 'users' in this world
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it's like coffee...
tastes good, addicting, keeps you awake...
you think of it as something good,
then you'll realize that all that acid will
melt your stomach walls.
it's a consequence eh?
just another day...
12:02 PM
Saturday, April 01, 2006
putangina.
I hate cursing, it sounds weird especially coming from a girl.
but I really feel like saying it now. Putangina talaga.
my right arm hurts like hell!
I'm not complaining that I've been working nonstop the whole week....
I love everything! all the editing and illustrations!
it's as if I'm addicted to work.
but really, all that stuff has a consequence.
my flabby arm's about to develop a muscle, the kind of muscle that you get when you lift dumb bells. I dont wanna look like Popeye the Sailor Man- I dont want uneven arms! I don't mind if my arms are all soft and flabby, but please.. Popeye?!
Gawd.
It's gotten hard for me to lift heavy objects...
I even had a hard time taking off my shirt this morning because of my arm.
sigh.
I need a break.
ugh.
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a trick question any stupid girl like me can answer. hah.
naloko ako dun ah. Ang stupid ko promise!
I can't believe I fell for that. XD
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I really love the song "OO" by Up Dharma Down.
I've been listening to it ever since my sister bought the CD.
And oh, I'm feeling happy despite all the chuvaness.
I don't want to think about anything right now. I just want to do whatever I want. Thinking too much makes me old.
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I'm so happy that Hazel got the slot for a job advertisement that I emailed her last week. Now she can freely use her artistic wisdom coz she's born with so much talent.
just another day...
12:34 PM
It's just that the only time available when I can do them is during night. But by the time I get home, I'm already tired and depression always hits me coz I'm always reminded of Pixie. I'm trying another style for my illustrations coz people who see my works say that they like so much coz they're either pastel-y or gothic. I'm no goth, ya know?! I dont know why people always say that I'm a goth. What can I do? They're the only decent clothes that I can wear, and I only wear clothes depending on my mood. So if that's what makes me goth, then ok.. goth it is. Wait, why am I so affected by this? I used to love goth fashion in college. We even decided on a gothic-japanese motif for our fashion show. Maybe it's because some people I know have stereotyped goths as weird, anti-social, devil-worshipping, freaky persons. I'm not like that, I'm just weird and a little bit anti-social (but not completely!).
I want a Monster Truck!!
