Monday, September 25, 2006

i feel so troubled lately. i wish i have control over things. i wish that i don't have to feel so affected when bad things happen to other people. if there's something that i can do, i would do it so i won't have to sleep with guilt at night knowing that some people are not happy with the way things are going. i want to tell someone about something but i'm scared that 'my being helpful/honest' would backfire on me again. i wish i didn't know anything, wish i hadn't seen it.

shit, ba't ganito? some good things have come my way but i can't celebrate coz i know that some people are hurting or would get hurt.

i don't know how i would reach out to comfort, to ease pain, make people feel stronger and make them know that everything will be ok.

i don't understand why some people can be so cruel and insensitive.

just another day...
2:01 AM

ABOUT ME:
i'm always in search of something... ermmm.. something what? even i don't know. sometimes i'm too giddy over the littlest of things, other times i'm in a slump- trying to figure out why i'm having another episode of semi-depression. i'm not bipolar though. i remember moments... the beautiful, funny, action-packed, romantic, whatever whatever that comes in front of my eyes. either i'm the protagonist or antagonist of the movie-like scene coz anyway, it's my freaking story. i write and rant about lots of stuff. if i can't express it in writing, i'll just draw it... you know, just to squeeze the creative juices. yeah, that is all.
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MY MATERIALISTIC WISHLIST!!!

Pullips Doll!!!I want! I want!

Carebears Dolls

My Little Pony toy (haha!)

Pen Tablet

MP3 Player

Another Phone

watch ARASHI live woohoo!

eat an Okonomiyaki in JAPAN

Arashi merchandise

eat at the cute ice cream parlor at San Juan :D

Battle Royale DVD ripped from DVD XD

small whiteboard with marker (just because)

New digicam

broadband connection at home

piano :D :D :D

quote atm... "I am someone who is looking for love... ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, cant-live-without-each-other love" -Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City