Friday, September 29, 2006
no work yesterday because of the typhoon 'Milenya'. watching the storm from our window is like watching a documentary on discovery channel. things are flying around, hitting our windows- it was scary! my sister even took some pictures and video of the trees and of our neighbor's roof which folded in half. good thing no one from my family was hurt coz we just stayed indoors. my dad laughed at me when he saw me making some shadow animals and monster- he said that i'm like a little kid again. haha.. good times.
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let me just share:
once, i heard someone talk behind my back saying that i'm a 'goody-too-shoes'.
what the fuck, right? or maybe even you, my reader don't even know.
see, i'm the least person that i know who'd want to please people. if i'm nice, it's just because it's in my nature to be good to other people. i don't need to please people because i'm scared of what the others might think of me - hell! that's the least of my worries. i just do my own shit and that makes me happy- happy but not contented coz someone once told me that if you already feel contentment, it's easier for you to die- or to make it simpler, 'it's time for you to die.' i'm sure it's not yet my time so i'll just stick to being happy.
okay, back to the topic. i don't know why it just slips off their feeble minds that there are still good people in this world. it makes me happy when i help people, what's wrong with that? it's like i'm in an alternate universe, where being nice is a crime.
but it doesn't mean that when someone is nice, they never feel a tinge of envy, anger and hate. i'm not some freaking robot that's programmed to spread 'world peace' by scanning its database of the word's definition - i have a heart, too. there are times when i also want to receive some form of gratitude... like a simple 'thank you.' those two words are enough.
i'm tired of complaining and i know that it sickens you, too to read my ranting. it just makes me wonder, 'is this the normalcy?'.
god, sometimes i wish that i'm just a selfish twerp.
just another day...
5:32 PM
