Tuesday, December 12, 2006
I used to be a big fan of birthdays,,, everything changed after two decades of glorious years. when i was a kid, i always have a party. i received lots of gifts from relatives, ninong, ninang, friends, classmates, and my mom & dad. the huge goldilock's rectangular chocolate cake became a tradition, complete with the written message "happy birthday owel, from mama & papa". december for me is a triple celebration coz my mom would buy me 3 new outfits- for my birthday, christmas and new year. even during my ate's birthday, my mom would still give me a gift, the one that's memorable is the barbie pool party set. ahh.. those were the days.
most girls have a grand celebration on their 18th birthday. it's the 'coming-out' party. well, i didn't have mine. we just had a quiet family dinner but i guess it's okay. on my 20th birthday, my perception changed: birthday is not something that i anticipate- it's something that i dread. why the change of mind, you ask? i don't know. maybe it's because of the nagging question on my head that says "what have i done in the 22 years of my existence?". honestly, not much. my mind has matured in some ways but i'm still a little naive or as clueless as when i was a little girl. being exposed to the real world after college graduation gave me a few fears- that i'll be joining a rat race and i'll be lagging behind. and oh, i forgot to mention that it's my birthday today. my dad texted me 'you're a big girl now!'. i received a lot of text message, email and personal greetings from friends and colleagues. THANK YOU, it means A LOT to me.
okaaay.... soooo not the dramaaa... just the sweet choco donut and it's happy-hormones-inducing ingredients kicking in. reverse effect, huh? well anyway, just like what i always say, i'm not in a hurry. right now, i'll just savor my youth before it fades away.
happy birthday to me. yeah! :D
just another day...
8:06 PM
