Friday, September 29, 2006
no work yesterday because of the typhoon 'Milenya'. watching the storm from our window is like watching a documentary on discovery channel. things are flying around, hitting our windows- it was scary! my sister even took some pictures and video of the trees and of our neighbor's roof which folded in half. good thing no one from my family was hurt coz we just stayed indoors. my dad laughed at me when he saw me making some shadow animals and monster- he said that i'm like a little kid again. haha.. good times.
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let me just share:
once, i heard someone talk behind my back saying that i'm a 'goody-too-shoes'.
what the fuck, right? or maybe even you, my reader don't even know.
see, i'm the least person that i know who'd want to please people. if i'm nice, it's just because it's in my nature to be good to other people. i don't need to please people because i'm scared of what the others might think of me - hell! that's the least of my worries. i just do my own shit and that makes me happy- happy but not contented coz someone once told me that if you already feel contentment, it's easier for you to die- or to make it simpler, 'it's time for you to die.' i'm sure it's not yet my time so i'll just stick to being happy.
okay, back to the topic. i don't know why it just slips off their feeble minds that there are still good people in this world. it makes me happy when i help people, what's wrong with that? it's like i'm in an alternate universe, where being nice is a crime.
but it doesn't mean that when someone is nice, they never feel a tinge of envy, anger and hate. i'm not some freaking robot that's programmed to spread 'world peace' by scanning its database of the word's definition - i have a heart, too. there are times when i also want to receive some form of gratitude... like a simple 'thank you.' those two words are enough.
i'm tired of complaining and i know that it sickens you, too to read my ranting. it just makes me wonder, 'is this the normalcy?'.
god, sometimes i wish that i'm just a selfish twerp.
just another day...
5:32 PM
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
sheeeeeet... ang drama!
(mag-inarte daw ba sa nakaraang post)
well anyway, it's ok now although i'm still a little ahmmm... what should i call it? ummm... paranoid? paranoid over what? i don't knowwwww. (i'm always like that)
naalala ko tuloy yung anime series sa Wowwow entitled "Paranoia Agent".
feeling ko, i'm just waiting for the Lil Slugger/ Shounen Bat to hit me.
Wolo long, just one of those moments -when weirdness hit me. XD
i want to watch Paranoia Agent again. Too bad it won't be shown locally coz of the adult chuvaness of the story... it's too weird for the little kiddos, it might freak 'em out. (Pero ang alam ko, they've shown it on Adult Swim sa America [?])
just another day...
5:02 PM
Monday, September 25, 2006
i feel so troubled lately. i wish i have control over things. i wish that i don't have to feel so affected when bad things happen to other people. if there's something that i can do, i would do it so i won't have to sleep with guilt at night knowing that some people are not happy with the way things are going. i want to tell someone about something but i'm scared that 'my being helpful/honest' would backfire on me again. i wish i didn't know anything, wish i hadn't seen it.
shit, ba't ganito? some good things have come my way but i can't celebrate coz i know that some people are hurting or would get hurt.
i don't know how i would reach out to comfort, to ease pain, make people feel stronger and make them know that everything will be ok.
i don't understand why some people can be so cruel and insensitive.
just another day...
2:01 AM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
wah. i. am. so. bored. my pc got pulled out coz the motherboard will be replaced for calibration. bored. bored. bored. i hate it when im idle. gah! (T.T)
just another day...
1:07 PM
Monday, September 18, 2006
after finishing off a big bag of potato chips, i feel like a blob again.
potato. potato. potato. potato again. last friday, i've eaten mashed potato for lunch anda large order of Mcdonalds's french fries for dinner . it's a good thing our fridge is out of potatoes or i'll be eating potatoes the whoooole weekend.
it's not just potatoes, but i haven't been eating some healthy food lately. mom and i feasted on yellowcab pizza and pasta last saturday. i didn't go to the office that day coz i can't move that much becoz of my forever aching back.
and yesterday... i almost pooped my life away from the slimming tea i drank before going to sleep. i also consumed meatloaf, lumpiang sariwa, peanuts, shrimp crackers and beef tapa.
by evening, i'm complaining to my mom that my tummy hurts and that i've barfed a few times.
she said that it must've been from eating too much .
owels. drinking the slimming tea might be a bad idea... i'm still munching like a monster.
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i was ready to shout "FUCK! IT'S A TALENT CONTEST, NOT A POPULARITY CONTEST!" last night. pero buti na lang, Filipinos are not that stoopid not to vote for Mau for the final slot in Philippine Idol. She's the only contestant who can sing! Imagine if someone who's good-looking but sings off-key wins the competition, what chance do we have in winning the World Idol title? Pag nagkalat yung representative natin, kahihiyan yun ng country noh?! :I
just another day...
4:26 PM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
| If You Were Born in 2893... |
 Your Name Would Be: Uaro Hana
And You Would Be: A Time Traveler |
| Your Famous Last Words Will Be: |
"Nice doggy." |
just another day...
11:03 AM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
here i am updating my blogger through my email account.
i'm so so sorry my dear blog, it's just that i'm starting to love my multiply account coz in there, i have my videos, music, links, reviews and blog. yep, another blog!
and not only that, my friends are connected to me through multiply, too.
so that means that i get to share my weirdness more to the world.
i've tried my darling blogger account, but the cross-posting feature isn't working.
i'll still update you, dontcha worry. coz you're my first blog, ya know?! you're the eldest so... what the hell, i don't know what i'm talking about. (is this something about that birth order again).
howells, imma go home now. ta-tah! (^__^)
Stay in the know. Pulse on the new Yahoo.com. Check it out.
just another day...
9:04 PM
