Monday, February 12, 2007
i received a text message from a friend last week. she offered something... something that's been bugging me in the past three weeks.
any sane person would've jumped at that offer... but you know, i'm not sane- so i turned it down. now i hate myself for my hasty decisions. i didn't even think for a minute before replying with a 'no'. what if i have said 'yes', maybe it would bring a big change to my life. i hate changes. but come to think of it, nothing much has changed in years. i've pushed away my chances, dropped every oppurtunity, ran away from change.
one time, someone asked me, 'are you happy?'. i just gave her a weak smile and said 'i've been thinking a lot lately'. i am bored. everything's the same. same old faces, same old topics. even the food has started to taste too bland. same old same old. nothing's challenging anymore. it's as if my colorful world has turned black and white.
i need my colors back. coz obviously, i'm not happy. i don't want to stay in black and white, even gray. i live in green, pink, purple, yellow, blue, red... any hue that has life. where did my passion go?
just another day...
10:56 AM
