Wednesday, April 18, 2007
my friend Luz will be leaving for China this week. it kinda shocked us coz we were only informed 2 days ago (monday). much as i want for our barkada to have a meet-up before she leaves, i wouldn't want her to see me bawling, see us all crying- it would only make her feel more sad. she won't be seeing her family during the holidays coz she can only go back every february.
sadness. *sniff*
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i have this habit of expecting things to happen because i was told that it would. i think too much, and i also worry about the what ifs (again). i'm starting to feel down again. it's as if something's pulling my heart, some invisible force is squeezing it. one of these days, i know that i'll think about this again then i'll cry (again). i'm disappointing myself again coz i'm assuming events that i have been imagining to come true and it's also bugging me in my dreams. oh well... just one of those days.
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i sometimes wake up remembering sentences from my dream. some were poetic. maybe i'd leave a pen & notebook beside me so i can write 'em all. yeah.
just another day...
11:00 AM
