current mood: happyhappyjoyjoy

just finished downloading Hana Kimi ep 8 & 9 (though no subs yet for 9). still downloading Yamada Taro Monogatari ep 6-8 coz i'm a loser for not realizing early on that i can create a livejournal account for downloading from locked LJ communities. aha! now i have one! oh yeah! ep 5 is so funny! Takako is the cutest ever XD.

payday today. i have money to spend. wahahahahaha.

ok. i'll shut up now.

it's funny that people text me quotes that tells exactly how i feel. sapul kumbaga. well anyway, kahit ano naman ang itext sa akin ng mga tao, i'm pretty sure na makaka-relate din ako coz ya know... i'm a paradox of emotions. (naks! ang lalim! :D) don't ask me to explain it, coz even i, myself can't place the right words. haha! XD

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"you can never lose someone who wasn't yours to begin with."

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oh yes, i'm not making any sense. what's new? hmmmm... i'm trying to divert my attention from the creature thing to some harmless fangirling. i'm like that anime character, Haruhi Suzumiya... i get bored easily. i love doing lots of things, i have so many interests. one time i'll be drawing, then a few hours later you'll find me reading a book. oh yeah, about books... i sometimes don't finish a book from cover to cover, i just skip to read the good parts.

okay, back to the topic. fangirling. every week, i have this what i call cutie-pie obsession. 4 weeks ago, i'm obsessed about some member of a Japanese boyband, Sho Sakurai from Arashi. the following week, Se7en... a korean superstar. A week later, I'm back to Sho because of the japanese drama Yamada Taro. Then the next week, it's Ikuta Toma because of another addicting j-drama, Hana Kimi.

ahahahahaha.... this is so crazy! i seriously need to find another way to vent. [>_<];;;

Learned from Jhayne that Tiane (or her boyfriend) has a friendster account. Oh what joy! i missed her so much. [^o^]

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wish i always brought a camera with me when i was in highschool. i don't have pictures of me and my friends during retreats, field trips or some school programs. the only pics that i have of my friends are class pictures and the black&white ones in our yearbook. sigh.

...the thing that I've been longing for is just a game. It makes me mad that they can laugh at how many times they've changed lovers, that it's just like changing your bedsheet. I wish they wouldn't treat it as a joke, half-meant or not... coz for some people, they can search for it for years and still get nothing.

Okay, here I am again ranting about some random stuff. I can't relate when friends talk about their so-called-exes, MUs, boyfriend/girlfriend. Funny though coz some of my friends would consult me about their love problems... and fortunately, my advices are not that useless.

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haaaaaayyyy... it really is true when they say that there's a good reason why the people we're attracted to are called 'crushes'. They really do 'crush' your heart, big time. [-_-]'

I left our house earlier than the usual time so that I won't be late. The stupid train arrived fifteen minutes after the scheduled time. Fudge. now I'm PMSing again.

Think happy thoughts... Think happy thoughts...

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While thinking happy thoughts, I remembered this show that I use to watch when I was a little kid. My nanny, elder sister and I would be all 'wow! how does he do that?!' while this afro-haired white guy is happily painting landscapes on his canvas. When he makes a boo-boo, he'll say 'it's ok, we don't make mistakes, just happy little accidents' then he'll start again with a fresh new canvas. What I loved most is the 'happy little trees'.

I think it is this show on TV that has made me want to become a painter.

Bob Ross. I searched 'happy little trees' on the web and learned that the painter's name is Bob Ross.

I haven't touched my oil paints and brushes in months. Maybe it's time that I pick up a brush again and start painting.

• Deathnote Anime and movie marathon with my sister this weekend (well, hopefully coz she'll have plenty of time after her prelims)
• Hana Kimi episode 1 to 3!! (will try try to DL 4 & 5 laterrrr)
• Show my sisters the other Arashi vids that I've DL'd (haha! my sis will prolly say "may dala ka laging kalandian every weekend!")
• I 'MUST' DL Yamada Taro Monogatari in divx, avi or mpeg format (coz I can't access flash sites... it's so pathetic! XD). I've read about the manga and I'm excited to see the live-action version because of Sho Sakurai. :D