my weekend in pictures..

(long ride from the office. overpass, LRT ledge, inside the train.)

(Hana / lunch time with Hana and Carrie- beside the rice cooker)

i don't get it. punyeta.

After two days, my body still hurt. My legs feel like they’re bruised, the balls of my feet ache whenever I walk and my cough have worsened. I cannot put in words how much hate I feel right now. It’s like a nightmare that I want to forget because just the thought of it makes me want to throw up.

It was SLAVERY. It was stupid.

I am not a bad person. I’d do everything just to help. I give food and money to charities, visit orphanages, even random people in need of clothes who knock on our door. But this is different, this has MONEY involved.

I am so mad.

I grew up with maids at my beck and call. I don’t touch people’s excretion… not even mine. I studied hard just to finish a degree so that I can find a good job- an office job. But what do I get in return?

Fuck them.

I have never felt so tired, disgusted and insulted in my whole life. A simple apology from them will never be enough. I. Want. Them. To. Die. I want blood splatter- all that jazz.

Now I can’t say that I am not a bad person but who cares? I can’t say that this is just one of life’s complexities because it isn’t. It’s an oddity, that people like them actually exist in this world.

I hope BAD KARMA gets to them- as soon as possible. I wish they’ll rot in hell.

hay nako! i'm at my wits end na, sobra. some people really do have a talent in making other people mad- to the point that they'll question their sanity.

this is crazy!

buti na lang i have my fandom to make me happy. arashi especially sho sakurai makes my heart go dokidoki (hihi XD).

haaaaay.... when i become rich i'll hire hardened criminals for goons then i'll take revenge. *insert bella flores laugh here*. i'll have the world at the palm of my hand.. hell yeah! :D

another movie that i'll watch over and over again.. hee hee :D

new year. new beginning.

i won't make a resolution because i don't stick to them anyway. but one thing that i always do is look back at the things that has happened in the past year- both happy and sad memories.

i am thankful for all the blessings that i have received. i am more blessed than i already thought i was. i met new friends, talked to old friends whom i haven't had communication in years.

i have saved a note on my phone that says "i want to give up but the world just won't let me." there are weeks that i feel depressed but it wasn't obvious because i'm stoic in a weird way- i'm good in pretending that i am happy. i've had my meltdowns but there are wonderful people who cheer me on, help me continue doing what i love to do.

last month, two people who mean so much to me left this world. my mom and my aunt Linda both had a good fight with cancer but i guess God needed more angels and had to take them back. they both had a life well-lived. my mom left on december 2, ten days before my birthday which is on the 12th. i cried on my birthday because i missed my mom terribly. sixteen days later, my aunt died in the hospital. she wasn't that ill before my mom died but maybe depression weakened her because a few days after my mom's interment she just stayed on her bed until she couldn't stand on her feet without anyone's support. our christmas and new year's celebration was different in 2007. it was sad, so sad not having them around anymore but we're happy that they're finally peaceful with the Lord, away from pain and suffering. but you know what, i still feel them around - it's as if they went to another country or something. there'll always be this void but i'm sure they're watching over us.

i won't make a resolution. i'll just do what i always do- to do what is right and always think twice before doing something. i've learned so much growing up and it'd be a waste if i forget all the lessons life has taught me.

here's to 2008. may we all be better people. may we be blessed, be happy, learn more, laugh more and build beautiful memories to look back on in the coming years. cheers! =)