no intarwebz so Furanchi and I are renting at a computer shop. gah [>_<] !

Well anyway, my sister's friend came home from a two week vacation in China. He gave her gifts- bag, watch and chocolates. They're already planning a Thailand trip in July but since he's been to China a couple of times to visit his relatives, they're thinking of going to China na lang since they have a house there. But no, I keep telling her "don't go to China... go to JAPAN!! gimme Arashi goodies". haha XD. I'm selfish like that LOLz.

I'm bored. I don't have money to buy Arashi's Time DVD and Dream-A-Live album. I want money! Their album topped the Oricon! Sugoi! [^_^]
I haven't watched or surfed the net in three days. I just try to go online for 30 minutes but still it's not enough. I can only whine because of our slow connection at home.. dial-up kills my happiness!

So...

...that is why I'm excited to go home right now coz... THE INTERNET MAN WILL BE INSTALLING OUR HIGH-SPEED INTERNET TODAY!!! 8D 8D 8D

haha.. finally! such joy!~ [TuT]v

I can watch Arashi on Gakkou e Ikou Max and News' Summer Time PV. Yay!!!! :D

Dad came home with goodies from his friend who went to Japan for business. There was this box wrapped in some neat packaging. Inside are sticky white desserts with red bean filling. I don't know what they're called... maybe 'daifuku' or 'wagashi'. I can't read the label coz it's in japanese XD. Anyway, they're very sweet. The texture is very smooth, almost melts in your mouth. My sister said it reminds her of 'espasol'. We've only managed to eat half of it. I've watched documentaries of japanese sweets being eaten with green tea so I think I'll buy some tea today... hihi [^u^]

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Hooked watching Bambino... I started from episode 1 to 3 two nights ago. Then last night, I watched episode 4 to 7. My eyes are already puffy from the lack of sleep. [-_-];

been feeling depressed again these past few days. i'm sad because i've been lagging behind these over the months. i feel so rusty. i hate it that i'm not doing anything to help myself. i'm scared of trying.

i'm scared of changes. everyday i try to keep myself busy -- try to obsess on little things just to divert my thoughts. it's hard to control my feelings, it's hard to control my tears from falling. it's gets so tiring that i just find myself sobbing on my pillow before i go to sleep or stare blankly outside the bus window on the way home.

i'm not being emo. i am depressed. is there a difference? i don't even know if i'm making any sense - i'm complicated that way.

so if you ask me now that question about the glass... i'll tell you it is empty.

Monday: Went to the cemetery with my elder sister and my Dad. We cleaned the whole lot and decorated Mom's, Grandma, Grandpa, Tita Linda and Ttita Myrna's graves with flowers and candles. We talked to Mom, said "Hi Ma!~ how are you?". Dad was singing his favorite Sinatra songs and we joked that if he sings the wrong lyrics, Mom would correct him. We also told Mom to take care of Tito Walton who passed away two sundays ago. It was a shocking news, and we're so worried for Tita Norma but couldn't email her cause only Tito Walton knew how to open an email account. That same sunday, my Mom's brother Tito Danny got diagnosed with lung cancer. Last sunday, Jhayne texted that her grandma died. From December to April. So many bad things have happened already. Sadness.

just finished watching Nodame Cantabile. it's a wonderful drama... i love the story, the characters and the soundtrack. i did not expect that i'll love it so much. i didn't have the time to watch because by the time that i get home people would be sleeping. but i stayed up late just to finish watching it.

i love Noda Megumi. she's the cutest girl ever, cuter than Takako Ikegami from Yamada Taro and Mizuki from Ikemen Paradise (in my opinion). i love it whenever she chases after her sempai Chiaki. She becomes serious only when she's playing the piano (she seem to enter a trance). what i love the most is Chiaki <3.>

watching this drama made me want to buy a piano. maybe next month... or next next month (haha XD). 'aim higher', Chiaki said. i'll aim higher... one day i'll be playing Classical piano pieces just like Nodame (dreaaaaaaaaaaam~!!!!!)