I should be sleeping but I guess it's fun when I can type without any distractions.. I mean, it's the dead of the night so everyone else are asleep. I've been thinking a lot lately. Well, except for my being a lazy bum and a hermit, there are other things that I think about especially when I'm about to sleep.
I've always thought that I was naive when it comes to certain things. I thought it's cool to just live free, to not worry about what's going on with my life or what's in store for me in the future. I've discussed it with a few friends, thought it's just some hormonal thing, just PMS whenever I get bothered about it but I realized that I AM lonely afterall. It's been a long time since I felt this way. I thought I have forgotten but I think I was just taking a rest with the *ehem* "lovelife" stuff (or the lack of it). I thought I have finally moved on but I still get jealous whenever I hear a single detail about him- who he's been seeing, his crushes, or that girl whom he's still hung up on. I'm not in a hurry to fall in love with another person again but I WANT to forget about him as soon as possible. I need to get out more. Come to think of it, my family and friends think I look paler now coz I don't get to much sun. Nah, I think it's just my heart- it needs to pump more blood to my face. Oh my poor heart! XI
hmmm.. this new keyboard sure is nice. The letter Ps and Bs in my words aren't missing anymore.
